Day 19 (pt. 2)…porn and wasted moments

Posted: March 28, 2011 in Uncategorized

I’m behind on my blog quota, so today might see 3 posts. Maybe…just maybe.

I’ve had a pretty consistent battle with an addiction to porn for years now. Well, not an addiction for years…because they don’t start that way. I’m not an expert at all, but I would think that they start from a poor choice which becomes a bad habit which ultimately becomes an addiction, if unchecked.

That’s been me. Some victories, some fail moments. A mix of wins and losses throughout the journey. Through all of the fail moments, the conviction has been there, but lately the conviction has shifted a little. It’s not just about giving into temptation anymore. But now…

…the conviction comes in being wasteful with my His time.

There are too many things on the list of “crap that needs to get done” for me to throw hours, minutes, or even seconds away. It’s a stewardship thing. Any moment that I’m not using to honor Christ is a wasted moment.

Should I be reading or emailing or praying whenever I get free time? Possibly, but not necessarily. Relax time, IHOP trips, goofy conversation, watching old Martin episodes…these can all fit in to good stewardship.

So, I’m learning, even through the process of trying and failing…but this is exactly why I need Christ and His patience. Daily. But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his immense patience as an example for those who would believe in him and receive eternal life.” (1 Timothy 1:16)

(I wasn’t planning to go in depth with the struggle for sexual purity in this post. It’s important and I’m not opposed, just wasn’t the plan here.)

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Comments
  1. DeAnna says:

    this really spoke to me bc its a struggle that many ppl have, including myself. and looking at it this way, that it’s also a complete waste of HIS time, puts it into another perspective. much needed insight. great.

  2. Nydia says:

    Love the message of this post I am currently fasting from my social networks for lent in and order to redirect the time that I waste on them when I could be spending that time with God. Now I would be lying if I said that I have been using all his time wisely bc I have not but prayerfully I will get better as the days go by because he deserves it. Thanks for letting my know I’m not in this battle alone

  3. sssmovement says:

    I appreciate this post so much. When I think of sin and things I need to be delivered from I used to take selfish comfort in thinking “well, Im not cussin (the big ones not the fake ones), sexin or killin so Im good!” But, for a few years GOD has been dealing with me concerning time management. As much as I hate wasting time… I used to waste it a lot- on a bunch of nonsense. Like TV. I programmed my life around TV schedule. I knew it was bad when I cut church because my fav show was having a season finale I thought I just could not miss.

    One day I got so frustrated, I cut my tv wire. Yes, I cut it. I have not watched cable/tv in my home since (since 09). I have been staring at a black box for months. I am not motivated to get the “time-waster” back on because I have been most productive without it. I fear I may revert. It is a struggle. Victory is ours thou. Continue to be easy!

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