Day 8…getting some understanding

It’s amazing what you learn about yourself through conversations with digital stalkers. Everyone should have a couple…unless they’re like real stalkers. For those, seek restraining orders. I guess I’m talking more about people that are willing to hold you accountable to what you said you would do. Definitely not the hiding in yo’ bushes ones…definitely not. But here’s what I learned…

When I restarted this blog, I said it would heavily chronicle my atypical Lent sacrifices of passive lying and defensiveness. Today I got a little more understanding of why passive lying is an issue for me. I realized that some of it honestly comes from a good place of not wanting to hurt people’s feelings.

I love and care a lot about my family and my friends, and hopefully my people can attest to this. (Let me know if i’m lying lol).  That love and care makes me want to protect their feelings…even to a fault. At times, I’ve been known to give a more gentle, round-a-bout response so that I don’t have to give that hard-hitting answer. But that’s not the best of moves. It ends up wasting time and energy, giving false hope, and maybe even setting someone up for failure. It’s just not good stewardship.

One sidebar thing about this discovery that makes me think…I wonder if I have close fam that won’t tell me what I need to hear, thinking that they’re sparing my feelings. Hmm…